Tuesday 14 July 2015

He traded in hope, she in resentment

The houseflies droned tirelessly. The apartment lay dormant beneath the thick layers of dust. A pungent odour embraced Maria. 

Maria tucked away her armchair in the corner of the living room, out of her husband, Paco’s, way. She exhaled. Why should he brush past her every time he makes his way from his armchair, to the kitchen or the bathroom? I won’t stand for it.

She wrapped her armchair in several layers of brown paper, which she nailed down with thirty shiny safety pins. She fell back in her armchair and took a full deep breath; the crackling noise of the paper made her giddy. 
She rested her swollen, ulcerated legs on a stool; it too was shrouded in brown paper. A family of maggots feasted on her ulcers.

Before long, her eyes were fixated on the tennis match. During the commercial break she scanned the room.
Her left eye twitched; her pupils became dilated; she retracted her lips exposing the cavities in her mouth, and yelled, ‘For fuck’s sake, Paco. Wake up! All you ever do is sleep! sleep! sleep!’ 

Paco’s right knee jerked inconspicuously. He slept unperturbed. She spat out her disdain.
The tennis match resumed. 

Next to her, stood a small coffee table. On it sat a small bottle of hand sanitiser, a packet of antibacterial wipes, and the universal remote-control .The latter was her singular source of entertainment.

She cleaned her hands with a dollop of sanitiser; she took four wipes and cleaned the remote control. She gripped the remote; her nails were thick, and discoloured, some had almost peeled back. 

The cuckoo clock struck midnight. 

A cursory glance at her husband was all it took; the tic in her left eye beat furiously. As far as she was concerned he was a total waste of space. 

She turned up the TV volume; the neighbour banged on the wall.

Paco’s right knee jerked slightly. He sat eyes shut. His neck and shoulders had succumbed under the weight of his head. The hairs of his nose were an unruly mob.

The phone rang. Paco opened his eyes, which revealed two pearls of liquid amber. He knew it was 12.30am. 
With his beautifully long fingers he picked the nose hairs out of his teeth.

He clasped both armrests, and locked his elbows in position, ready for take off. Oh, how he wished he had an ejection seat. 

The phone kept ringing. 

He stood and breathed slowly.

‘Don’t answer the phone!’ Maria said with a touch of hysteria. 

Paco could no longer hear her, but as he stood there, he felt her gnarled tentacles wanting to engulf his mind.
The phone rang out. That was okay. He and his daughter, Nena, had an arrangement. 

Nena had taught him to march in place, lifting his knees high toward the ceiling, to loosen up his legs before he attempted to walk. This always made him smile; he felt he was getting ready for battle.

He stared at the wall facing him. His wife’s large portrait was framed in gold. He noticed a blank space where his daughter’s photo had once lived. His eyes lingered; ‘I choose to never forget,’ he softly muttered.

The phone rang again.

‘I have told you not to answer the phone!!!! This is my house and you will do as I say,’ Maria shrilled. 
This time the neighbour hammered on the wall.

Paco turned towards his wife, and scrutinised her face. He opened his mouth but there was a void. He bit his lower lip; ‘Wh-wha…ay, aa-aa…re, yo-yo…you, ss…so, intent on hu-ha…rr…ting us?’ Paco found himself asking her as if it merited an answer. He bit his bottom lip again. 

His wife mocked him. ‘You are no more than an illiterate village donkey.’ 
He had stopped listening.

The phone kept ringing. 

He took small but well measured steps towards the phone; his heart beat with an excited tic, tac, tic, tac. He leaned on the cabinet, and picked up the receiver.

‘Papa, it’s me Nena,’ said the voice at the other end. 

He breathed slowly and rhythmically like she had taught him. He knew her voice would nurse him back to sanity.
‘Hello sugar,’ he replied.




















The Precipice 


I sit in bed overcome by debilitating nausea. One hand resting 
on Rubyred, edging closer to me, his body anchoring me to my 
bed. A reminder I belong in the land of the living. 

I close my eyes. With my left hand I reach out to the branches of 
the trees swaying furiously, beckoning me.

I step into the precipice. Will the branches support me as I too 
now sway furiously?

I open my eyes, my roots delve deeper into the mattress. 
No longer on guard, Rubyred’s breath is slow and rhythmic. He 
gazes at Marmalade whom he adores.

Sleep descends upon my eyes. Longing to rest and sleep forever. 
Sleeping Beauty comes to mind. 

A brief sojourn in idle mode interrupted by the pungent smell of 
lemon oil burning.

I hear the sound of pitter patter in the distance. It brings me back 
to the here and now.

I remember my father in hospital, one hand strapped to his 
bed, held in situ. Robbed of all dignity. Dementia-his sole 
companion as he edges closer to the precipice.



Wednesday 8 July 2015

In housing no-one can hear your scream


I didn't know what anti-social behaviour meant until I moved in next door to an ice addict.  On the second day another neighbour asked me how I was coping living there.  She said  'Housing shouldn't have put anyone next to him, it's irresponsible!'  I said so far so good.  They were early days, I hadn't had the full impact.

Then the ice addict graduated to ice dealing and next door became a portal to hell.  My life
became cacophony of abuse, noise, violence, police, crims, thugs, would be bikies, suits,
undercover cops, paramedics and numerous enablers streaming in.  They banged on my door demanding to be let in, not listening when I said it was next door they wanted.  I have been threatened, cajoled, sweet talked, had really fit guys climbing the walls and roof like Spiderman on speed, not breaking a sweat and eyeballing me intensely. 

Then my neighbour started renting out rooms and then kicking his tenants out and withholding their belongings.  Doors starting to be kicked in, people screaming outside they wanted their stuff, threats abounding 'You better see me before I see you, you f**- dog-give-up-police-informer-useless-old-f**-c** !!!”

I complained to my local office and was told to write a letter to Housing and if possible get other neighbours to do the same so it wasn't just a vendetta by one tenant. I said 'apparently they already have and this has been going on for over ten years'. 

Housing said 'We don't have a record of that.  Start keeping a diary and report the activity on these forms.  Then send it to us and we will stamp it.  Call the police in regard to excessive noise and criminal activity.  Then get a police event number so we can communicate with the local area command as we have what's called a Memorandum of Understanding, which allows us to take quicker action.'  'Strong action needs strong evidence'  they said. 

I did that, over and over again for 5 years, I rang the police so much I felt apologetic when I reported another break in, door smashed, excessive noise, violence, UR's (unauthorised residents), and possible drug dealing. 

I became a super-dooper-hyper -vigilant -curtain-twitcher immersed in a climate of paranoia.  First you experience the antisocial behaviour, then you have to make sense of it, by documenting, reporting and talking about it to different client service officers, police, team leaders, local MP's, magistrates, tribunals, community justice, crisis teams – anyone who will listen, as you become more and more desperate and frustrated.  In those 5 years I never experienced a night of unbroken sleep except when I stayed with friends or family. 

Everyone becomes burnt out by anti-social
behaviour.  The police say it's not their problem, Housing have to evict the tenant, Housing say it's not their problem ring the police. Meanwhile we have to get event numbers from both departments and continue to document, document, report, report, talk talk and then to be told that each incident is only relevant if it's reported within 30 days.  In housing no-one can hear you scream.

Annonymous.




Monday 24 November 2014

In memory of Francy

by Judy Singer

Incandescent forever
Francy 
Reforming heaven, now, 
Look out, falling angels, Francy's
Got your number, wastes no time
Her steel blue eyes twinkle with the stars,
They don't miss much
Her red gold halo askew with glory
She's down to business
No more pain to quench her flame

Pushing Freedom

by Lisa

Escaped at last
po-going pram
skipping mum
light bulb smile

Crashing sounds mute
Feeling sunlight on skin
Unfreezing

shackles unbuckling
with wheels of wind
a child's gleeful gurgle

lightness of her being
shadow chasing
moving on

she smiles at her son
into the cracks of light
pushing a pram of freedom

Birds on Norton Street

by Susan Hawkeswood

At dusk, the sound of the birds in the trees along Norton Street almost drowns out the sound of the traffic. Shrill mynahs, chorusing as the sun slides down the sky on the western side of Leichhardt. Mostly silent are the ravens who perch on the steeple of All Souls Church on the corner of Norton and Marion Streets. The ravens search for food, flying back and forth across the intersection, diving on any crumb they spy. One day, a raven battled the traffic in Marion Street, fluttering in and out of the line of cars. The raven made a move into the road just as a car turned the corner into Marion Street. Flapping its wings, the raven retreated to the footpath. The raven repeated this action over and over again, all for a scrap of food lying on the roadway, risking its life to eat.

Monday 17 November 2014

I first came


after translating
the short story
distinctive voice
showing
lyrical pleasure
explores love
the idea
verses
playful twist
and wonders
hidden
in everyday
words